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Change....

Change
How does one define change ?
Is it something that happens gradually over time without you ever noticing it or can it be brought about by deliberately forcing yourself to ?
Is it really necessary in the scheme of things that define life ?
What if one never changed at all ? Would that even be possible ?

Well when someone says, u aren't receptive to change, well then i guess thats time to get your introspection shoes on. Someone did tell me that and that got me into denial mode. I was arguing that i can be as open to change as anyone on the planet. But then, am i really putting my money where my mouth is?

When i think about it, there are a million times when i didn't want change. I hated change. There were times when my neighbors changed, i hated it. I always preferred the previous ones even if they were the most hideous and devilish people, i ever knew. But then as time passes on, every things forgotten and its all pally.
Last time, i hated leaving school because i was scared of the change where i might meet new people, unknown ones. The fear of the unknown is something that i am riddled with, every time there is a need for change

I hate it when i have new teachers teaching me at the beginning of a semester. I guess i've always found comfort in things i know and am used to. Is that bad ?
Is it bad because i prefer the same thing over and over again ?
Well, honestly i dunno. I never thought its a big deal, but once when i look into it deeply i guess it does matter a lot.
Does that mean, my psyche is flawed ? or is something fundamentally wrong with me ?
Why am i so scared of it ? Why do i have to hide myself under a veil ? Why do i have to take pleasures in false securities ?
Those are questions to which, i would love answers to. But then something that u really want is always the hardest to get.

Maybe a reason for this is fact that i was never exposed to change throughout the early part of life. I studied in the same school for 13 years, then i had the same friends for over 10 years etc. I have always lived at the same place, then i have always done the same things, i have always had the same room and yeah i have always had the same parents :P
Is that something that defined my fear of change ?

There was one post of mine, where i did point out something about someone telling me how much I've changed etc. Then i did realize that i am quite different from what i was in my first year. I still hate those shoes i put on in my first year. I acted nerdy and geeky and shitty. I can still see the look on the faces of those production guys when they realize that i am a completely different person today then what i was then. Gosh! How i would hate being there again. It surely had to be one of the lows.
But then people who know me from then are appalled. Two hoots! I'd say.

I have always been the carefree one. Never gave a shit about anything and i know i never will. But then sometimes the sudden urge to do something is irresistible. It does scare me that even the small things can profoundly impact my attitude. But then I know tomorrow morning, I'll be all normal and would be laughing at this reaction of mine to that statement. Maybe that is what is wrong with me. I'd never take someone seriously enough till it ends with a monkey on my back.

Thats me.

The Bubbles' Ad-venture

It was 3:40 AM when i left the place. I realise that my fuel tank says its almost close to zero. I decide to fill it up and get the tyre pressures checked, after all its almost a 40km ride to the place one way. So i start.

I am already feeling adventurous ! I decide to push my luck and fill the tank at Bubbles' place. She lives 25km away and i was sure i would make that distance easily with the fuel i had, but after that i wasnt sure. So push i did, driving leisurely, rather cruising along pretty nicely, i reach her place at about 4:20. Man, this girl never ceases to amaze me ! She sneaks outta the house and cool-ly scales her compound wall with consummate ease and joins me. Wow ! proud of u girl. i cld never do that !

Then we start off on our little odyssey. But then i suddenly realise i'm running short of fuel soon and this wunnerful adventure of ours might end up a dampener. The petrol bunk near her place was closed :( Lazy bozos! So there we start off and then i tell her, that we might end up pushing the car :P The look on her face conveyed a million emotions ! The shock and the disgust at me were so clearly evident. Priceless :p We keep moving on while she wants to go back to the city and find a place. But i was hoping to find one on the highway. I was secretly nervous as hell, i was literally shitting in my pants but then i was supposed to keep cool in front of the lady, so i put up a bravado show. Thus we keep going with her almost falling short of getting hysterical.

Just when i thought bubbles was gonna blow her top, i find a petrol bunk. But the damned place was closed ! It was 5 in the morning, but still he didnt open up. So after some begging and pleading, and running around, the guy finally agrees and fills up petrol. I survived 42 kms on a near empty tank. Now when i think of it, i could prolly have done another 40 kms easily but i'm sure she would have murdered me before that :p.
So with one burden outta our head and after umpteen abuses and wiser about the next time, we head off towards the destination.
We reach the place at about 5:15. Its amazing. The hordes of Eucalyptus trees are mesmerizing. We follow and existing path and start trekking. Guess what! For the first time in my life, i see a flying peacock !
Amazing sight it is... We walk for about 20 mins and then she notices a rock, So now we decide its rock climbing time. Its a small one and the view from the top is amazing ! The sights and sounds of the jungle are hypnotizing. The we decide to explore the place and follow the calls of the peacocks.But alas! we were unlucky and could not find any more. But i was treated to a biology lesson about the various plants and creatures that we found. Man, a walking encyclopedia, she is! A walk in her company, and one would surely be left craving for more !

Finally its time we headed back, after our little adventure. It was the most amazing feeling ever. Now i know, when i wanna get rid of those disappointments and when i am down, these are the times I'll remember. The adventure is something i wanna do again. Best part, we were back home by 7 AM.
Not to mention the fact that, the drive was absolutely mind blowing! The roads are a dream and are very well maintained all throughout.

Waiting to do this again soon and will surely post ! Adios !

Whatta Nighta

There are times when one does realise that no matter the shit thats thrown at you, the little moments are whats its all about. The times when you realise that living is truly worth it, times when those disappointments and failures are pushed back down into the distant past and all that matters is the joy and ecstasy of the current moment.
I am proud to say that today, 22 May, 2008 is one such moment filled day which will remain etched in memory forever.I know, when i look back at the madness of the events, i will no doubt be appalled but then whats fun without a little recklessness :p

It all started on the 21st of May at about 11 PM. It was Champions League(CL) final night. What a better setting than Manchester United taking on the Chelshits in the land of the Kremlin- Moscow. Last time, United played in the CL final, i hardly understood what football was except that it was a round projectile propelled by the energy one generated from the muscles of ones lower body!
So the fact that this was my first ever CL final with my favorite club playing meant that,this was the night for my little outing too(later on this :) )
So at 11 PM i started off on a 15km long journey to a collegemate's place. I reached the place, and we United supporters were left teeth chattering as the build-up to the most important match of our United career, started.
At 00:15 IST, the match kicked off and it was United all the way. The icing on the cake was the 26th min goal by the wunderkid, Cristiano Ronaldo. We were on cloud 9. But then in the injury time, almost as the ref blew for half time, Chelshits scored :( Thus, game on it was in the 2nd half.
After another 45 mins in the second half and 30 mins in the extra time, it was penalty shootout time. It made me all the more jittery, cos never before did a team supported by me, ever win a penalty shootout. But when, VDS made that save of Anelka, we knew we reached the promised land. It was jubiliation and we were speechless. I was in wunderland with United written all over me. It was the best feeling that i have ever experienced in my short period as a United fan !
Glory Glory Man United !!!