Politician or terrorist.....

Mr. Raj Thackeray, where the heck were your so-called loyal workers when Mumbai was being held hostage?

Do you realise Mr. Thackeray, Mumbai was saved by your so called enemies- the Non Maharashtrians ?
Do you realise that your so-called MNS wimps were nowhere to be seen ?
Do you realise that Major Sandeep Unnikrishnan, NSG guard Gajendra Singh who laid down their lives for the sake of 'your' city were non Maharashtrians ?
Do you realise that its Non Maharashtrians who have lost more than you could ever lose in your entire lifetime, for the sake of protecting Maharashtra ?
Do you realise that Mr. Karambir Kang, a non Maharashtrian is still working with the burden of losing his family in his heart ?

Mr. Thackeray, you are a hardcore politician. You know bloody well, no one is ever gonna believe you again. What the fuck were you doing at the funeral of Officer Hemant Karkare ?
I wonder whatever happened to your stance of a couple of days ago, when you categorically alleged that Officer Karkare was an anti-national element.
Why are you attending the funeral of an anti-national element ?

The answer Mr. Thackeray is that, you were wrong. You were always wrong. Every single time, when you led the agitations against the non-Maharashtrians, when you beat the railway board examinees black and blue, every single time you flashed a grin while walking out of a police station, every single time you spoke about anti-national forces, you were always wrong.

Its hard for you to admit it, but you should realise that it takes balls to admit one's mistakes. Its amply evident that you are nothing but bullshit. You are sick, and you make me puke at the very sight of you.

Its such a shame that I'm supposed to call you, my countryman. I'm sorry, but I really dont see a difference between you and those terrorists who attacked Mumbai.
You are the political terrorist. You are the scum of this nation. You ought to be flogged and fed to the sharks.

I hope you and your ilk are kicked out of the country. You are a disgrace.

Mr. Prime 'Wimp' Minister

It is such a travesty that we are stuck with a wimp of a Prime Minister to lead us. With such an uninspiring and soporific speech, dude, who do you think will ever listen to you ? You think you can lead a country of a billion and many more people ?
I'm sorry Mr. Prime Minister, but you suck. When will you learn to call a spade a spade ? Its high time you've stepped out of the cosy comforts of your home, surrounded by tens of the most highly trained commandos in the country. Its time you have admitted that you have failed us.

You have failed each and every victim.
You have failed the numerous tourists who chose to spend a holiday in the nation of a million dreams.
You have failed those people who are anxiously waiting for news about their loved ones.
You have failed all those people who unfortunately chose to dine at a fancy plush restaurant one night.
You have failed the brave and fearless police officers who've laid their lives saving innocent civilians.
You have failed Hemant Karkare, Vijay Saluskar, Ashok Kamte, Major Unnikrishnan and the tens of other brave officers.

Mr. Advani, the leader of the opposition. What the hell do you think you were doing ?
Walking into the scene of action accompanied by a battalion of bodyguards, and interrupting the forces handling the terror scene, do you think you were reassuring ?
Far from it, all you've managed to do is distract the forces.
Why should we pay thousands of rupees to protect you ?
What makes you or the Prime Minister different from the common man on the street ?
What is it that is different about you from me that you deserve the so Z-category security ?
Why do you need those guys risking their lives for your sake ?

I have questions and the answers are sadly absent. Questions that boggle the mind of every Indian who is glued to the television set. Questions that haunt the thousands who've lost a brother, a sister, a son or a wife, or a parent to the crazy mayhem.

Scary that a couple of guys not much older than me can actually bring the whole country down on its knees. Its time we revamped the whole system. I'm sure I would have been happier if each and everyone of our politicians were actually shot instead of the innocent civilians.

Mr. Prime Minister, why dont you do me and a million heads a favor ? Just resign and please stop meddling with the operations of the nation's forces.They've done more for us in the past 48 hours than you morons could ever do in an entire lifetime. Please, please, please Shut up and never show us your face again.

The Mumbai Tragedy.

Terrible, Terrible Situation - Amitabh Bachchan

Enough has been said and the events that have unfolded over the past 48 hours have been described in vivid detail by the numerous news channels. Condolences pouring in from different corners of the world.

News coverages have been littered with faces of tearful friends and family members, relieved hostages who have been rescued, the masked faces of the hundreds of the Marine and the NSG Commandos... The sight has been overwhelming. It still is.

Everytime i switch on the news channels, I am confronted with conflicting reports on the many channels. One tells me Nariman House is cleared and another quotes the NSG head saying the place is still being swept. Why cant everyone give us consistent information. Why create havoc ? Why create false hopes ?

Where is the Home Minister?
Why cant I hear a word of assurance from those sitting in the upper echelons of power ?
Why cant I sleep without any fear of it happening again in my city ?
Why cant you tell me, its over ?
Where is everyone when we need you the most ?

You call yourself leaders, and you are the first one to cower down. The bloody cowards who hardly care about anything else once you have your way. Selfish leeches. I wonder what happens to those grandiose speeches and promise the heavens to the commoners during the times of elections. Have you suddenly lost your tongues ? Have you lost your loquaciousness ?

The disheartening part is that each and every one of you who dons the Neta cap is equally bad. I have lost hope in you. I dont think i can ever trust you with my safety. You guys suck.
Its time you've come out of your hiding. Cowards.

Fuck up..

Why does it have to be me ?
Everytime i start out to do something, i end up inevitably screwing it. Why am i the one subjected to this mega mess up torture?

People trust me to do something and i inevitably end up letting them down. No matter what, its one of the worst feelings to sit and brood over a major screw up. Every time i wanted to do something good for her, i end up screwing it. She is understanding and highly supportive of what i do, but it hurts at the bottom. Somewhere something tells me, you suck.

But then there have been better times. Times spent in joy are easily forgotten but the bad ones linger around for more longer than can be deemed within the bounds of comfort. The uneasiness when u face someone u messed up for and the accompanying guilt is something that will never leave me. No matter how nice the she can be, no matter what she does to make u feel comfortable, somewhere down there i have this feeling that she deserves better.

Someone said keeping your head while everyone else around u is losing it, is something one should strive to achieve, but then what if u cant ? what if the impulse to follow the masses is so strong that u cannot resist it ? what if the urge to do it overshadows everything else in ur head at that moment ?
I know every single time, it was me who fucked up. There was always the better way to go about it but i never bothered to take the pains to find out and she never cared. But this time i knw it pricks everywhere and it was the worst thing i could ever have done, but sadly some part of me says it was something i couldnt help. Well i dunno if i could have done it all differently but its my fault. The worst part is shes accomodating about it and u knw that u are allowed to get away with it. Thats the part that makes this experience even more horrendous.

I apologize to everyone concerned. Its something thats been weighing on me throughout the evening, and yeah the apologies may not correct what has happened but i sure as hell would wanna tell them i am genuinely sorry.